Monday, August 19, 2019

The Heart Break continues

Eva is still helping with running the house at Belle Alliance and teaching Mr. Kock's children.  Dodd is up river (Mississippi) in Illinois and Iowa buying and selling cattle for the farmer he is working for and both of them are apparently pining for each other.  Dodd is said to have Eva's picture with him everywhere he goes and Dodd's picture is on Eva's desk.  In today's world they would be writing letters to each other.  In the 1890s, most contact was through a third party.  Thus Anais, Dodd's sister and Eva's 'Pard' (friend), was the source of contact for Eva and Dodd.
   Eva claims that Dodd is "dead to her" now, but her diary entries tell a different story.  She calls it being blue, today we know it as heart broken.



   We’ve had several cloudy days, and now we are getting the rain.  Mama is still in bed, but is better tonight.    Aunt Frank is still sick, and gets no better.  She is so old, that it’s bound to go hard with her.    Had a letter from Pard today, written Saturday.    They’ve never had but the one letter from D-.    Is he giving up his family already?

   OH! for one hour of the past!  To be once more with the Dodd I used to know – the Dodd who is dead to me now!    His picture stands before me, on the desk, looking at me with those “dark, mesmeric eyes” that bring back the moments we have spent together.  How tenderly those eyes have looked down on me – what a love-light shown in their dark depths!    But this is madness!

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